# Prayer for Torah 10

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10.

Master of the Universe, merit me as quickly as possible to calmness of mind in This World and this body. Help me to calm my mind very, very well to think about the ultimate purpose of the world with all its cravings and dealings, whether the physical cravings that enter the body or whether those outside the body such as honour and status, hate, envy etc . Merit me to look at my ultimate purpose with real calmness of mind. Let the world not delude me at all. You know, that all our distance from You is because we do not think calmly at all. If we merited to think calmly about the bitterness of This World with all its cravings and delights that pass away like a shadow, and all the distress, anguish and suffering which are an integral part of them and far greater that the enjoyment, we would see the loss is far greater that the gain and then we would merit to calm ourselves very well and certainly return to You in absolutely genuine repentance for the truth is that even in This World we can see how it is all vanity and worthless, even more so in relation the World to Come.

In the end, we have to give back the pledge to its owner and the body will return to the earth and the worms. We will be forced to make an account to the King of Kings, the Holy One, for all our actions. We will be reminded of everything there. Nothing will be reminded of everything there. Nothing will be overlooked from what we have done. There will be no place to escape to. But the truth is that our distance from You, is only because we do not calm our minds really and truly.

However, You revealed to us, through Your holy Torah that the main way to achieve this calmness of mind is by being happy. You also know my great distance from happiness, therefore, I have come before You, G-d, my G-d and G-d of my Fathers, Master of Joy to ask that You have mercy on me and all the Jewish People and in Your great, hidden and eternal compassion, You draw upon us true joy from Heaven, in such a way that I merit to always be happy and join the happiness to by brain. May I redeem and fee my brain, mind and thoughts from their prison and great, bitter exile to which they have bee exposed for months and years, since I remember myself, due to my bad thoughts, confusions, foolishness and crooked heart. These thoughts enter the brain and heart all the time and cause the brain and heart to become crooked. It is unbearable. The main exile of the mind is because of depression and very bitter sadness which overcome us. We cannot calm our minds, neither can we control our brains as we want for we are continually overcome with sadness. That is the main reason why we have become distant from G-d and done what we have done, sinning as we have.

Every person knows in his heart his own great distance from G-d. However much more we become distant, the depression and sadness overcome us more. Further more however much more the sadness and depression overcomes us, Heaven forbid, our confusion increases until we become unable to think calmly. Oh, how we have destroyed our temple of wisdom and burnt down the palaces of our intelligence; we have exiled our minds to various places of exile.

Master of the Universe, the distress of our hearts has greatly increased. We have no understanding of how to speak and how to calm ourselves in this ephemeral world by thinking of our ultimate, eternal, true purpose. However, in Your immense compassion, because You desire our final good, You have give us a cure before the fatal illness by sending us tzaddikim in each generation who, through their great power, have rectified what they rectified. They have taught us various true and wonderful ideals so that we can gladden our hearts at any time. They warned us and encouraged us to strengthen ourselves so that we remain happy constantly for example, they taught us to be happy at having been born a Jew.

In Your immense mercy, Yu have saved us with wonderful and awesome miracles from opposing true tzaddikim and genuinely kosher servants of G-d. Therefore, I have come before You to plead with You, Merciful One, that I merit to always be happy by finding good points within myself. You merited me to perform many mitzvot every day, reciting blessings and prayers, morning and evening; I engaged in studying Your holy Torah with its mitzvot which straighten and gladden the heart. Enable me to speedily calm my mind by thinking about the ultimate purpose of all the cravings and dealings of This World. As a result, please merit me to really return toYou in repentance from now on and forever.

11.

 When a person prays in the field, then all the grasses and plants of the field join into his prayer and help out, giving strength to his prayer. This is an aspect of "And Yitzchak went out to pray in the field" (Gen.24:63). His prayer was with the help and strength of the grasses of the field. Therefore in the curse it says "The earth will not give forth its crop". That's to say, the crop of the earth will not give strength into one's prayer. "Crop" ('yebul') alludes to the initial letters of the verse "And Yitzchak went out to pray in the field"- U'Yitzchak Yetzei La'suach B'sadeh."