# Torah 11 - I Am The Lord; That Is My Name

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a) By talking out words of Torah this will shine (clarify) for a person all the places (aspects) where he has to repent so that he will merit to perfect repentance. And so on each time, by each act of repentance he will progress from one level to another until he leaves the lowly levels and reaches a deep understanding of the Torah.

b) When a person is very careful and guards himself so as to respect G-d perfectly, being scorned and abhorred in his own eyes before the glory of G-d, he will merit to words enlightened with Torah such that they will shine him the way to repentance which is complete. Then he will come to a deep understanding of the Torah.

c) However, it is impossible to merit to these enlightening words other than by breaking one's pride and self importance. One's learning mustn't be for the sake of honour or out-arguing others, Heaven forbid, or in order to receive a rabbinic position or public status. This depends on guarding the brit.

d) Pride is an aspect of idol worship and by this one loses the power of speech to be able to speak enlightening words; one cannot open the mouth. When Torah is spoken from such a mouth, not only won't the words shine to bring him back in repentance, the Torah itself will become crude and dark in his mouth, Heaven help us.

e) Pride and sexual desire are inter-dependent. When a person guards himself from sexual blemishes he will be saved from pride. Then he will merit to a light which will illuminate for him a path to repentance until he merits to achieve a deep understanding of the Torah.

f) The main feeling of bitterness, bother and strain of making a living stems from sexual blemishes. Someone who is careful to remain pure, even when he performs the 39 forms of work and business, they are an aspect of the handicraft of the building of the Tabernacle which allude to the 39 holy lights ( Isaiah,26,19 ) .On the other hand, if someone blemishes the brit then poverty chases after him and he draws upon himself the burden, effort and great bitterness of making a living which is a reflection of the 39 lashes ( the Torah punishment for certain sins ), Heaven save us.

g) Guarding the brit has two aspects; there are those who have relations during the week but, even so he is careful to do it according to the laws of what is permitted. He guards himself from sinning, Heaven forbid. This needs very great care and is called 'the lower unification'. By this he merits to achieve the Halacha in the Torah, the secrets. On the other hand, someone who has relations only from one Shabbat to another, this is called 'the sublime unification' and through this he merits to understand kabbala, secrets of the secrets. But even in the latter case, he needs to be very careful to do it with holiness and to be included in those who guard the brit. Even more so is this true with simple people who do it during the week; they certainly have to be extremely careful to guard themselves so as not to blemish the brit, Heaven forbid, or at least not to transgress a Torah law. When a person guards the brit in both these aspects then he merits to honour G-d perfectly and achieves all the virtues mentioned above such that he finally reaches a deep understanding of the Torah.

h) There is a type of humility which is the ultimate form of pride, that's to say a person acts humbly because he knows that pride is to be despised very much. Therefore he is humble in order to receive honour. Thus, it turns out that he is humble in order to achieve self esteem and honour. So, a person has to be clever in his ways and distance himself from pride a great deal, to the ultimate degree, as the Sages said, "Be of a very, very lowly spirit" ( Perkei Avot ) . Self esteem is an aspect of the seven houses of idol worship which caused Israel to be exiled from the Land of Israel. As a result of this we still haven't returned to our Land because we chase after honour and after self esteem, Heaven save us.