# Prayer for Torah 12

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12.

Master of the Universe, You have already promised us in several ways and warned us that there is no such thing as despair at all. Maybe G-d will perform one of His wonders and bring me back to repentance with all my heart. Merit me to fully search for You until I speedily find You and come close to You. Help me, for I rely upon You.

Please enable me to ask for and search after Your glory until I really find it. Your mercy upon us is so great that You informed us from afar of this lofty Torah by which we can find You even in the very deepest decline through searching and asking ‘Where are You?’ Where is my holiness? Where is my purity? Where is my soul, my spirit and neshama? Where is G-d, my G-d, the G-d of our Fathers Who took us out of the land of Egypt? Where is the place of glory? By asking all this we can merit to turn my decline into a great ascent. So, merit me to escape from and rise up from all the places of filth into which I have fallen because of my many iniquities. May I then return to You in complete repentance, truly with all my heart, as You desire. Help me so that all my deeds will only be for the sake of Your honour. Let me not consider myself or my honour at all, nor any other worldly reason. Rather, let me only have Your honour in mind in whatever I do. Through Your bountiful mercy, merit me to raise, exalt, glorify and magnify Your great honour. May all of the Jewish People merit to truly serve You with great simplicity all our lives, without any cleverness at all.

Please G-d, merit me to be counted among the tzaddikim who sustain the world which was created with Ten Sayings. Help me! Help me! Be gracious to me. I have gone astray like a lamb. Search for Your servant. If I do not merit to search for You as I should, then please search for me with Your bountiful mercy and awesome loving-kindness. Extract me from all the physical cravings, especially the craving for sex. Have mercy and compassion on me. Please, do not hide Your countenance from Your servant for I am in distress. Answer me as promptly as You can. Merit me from now on to really sanctify and purify myself. Let me feel godliness upon me at all times. Be gracious to me so that I can really know with all my heart and at every moment, that the earth is full of You glory. Your Kingship extends to all places. Let me never forget You, whether by day or night, at home or outside, when eating or drinking. In my thoughts, speech and actions, in all my movements, every moment, merit me to feel Your godliness and kingship over me for it fills all the world.

Help me to really come close to You. Purify and sanctify me from all the filth and dirt that I have brought upon myself through my many sins over the years until now. Raise me speedily from filth to purity, from the mundane to the holy. Bring me out of the darkness into light. Fulfill in us the very: “I will sprinkle pure water upon you that you may become cleansed; I will cleanse you from all your contamination and from all your idols.” (Ezekiel 35,36).

Our Father, our King, reveal Your glory and Kingship over us. Appear and reign over us very soon before the eyes of all living beings. Have compassion over Your great honour which is desecrated among the nations as a result of our many iniquities. Return us in complete repentance before You in such a way that we merit to raise and exalt Your great and holy glory. May Your glory fill all the earth and let every breathing thing give honour to Your Name. Master of the Universe, reign over all the world in Your glory. Let every created thing know that You are its Maker and may every creature understand that You are its Creator. G-d, G-d our G-d, G-d of the Jewish People, performer of wonders alone, be blessed.

Blessed is His glorious Name forever. May all the earth be filled with His glory.

Amen and Amen.

13.

 When there is controversy against a person and he is chased after, he can come closer to G-d through this, for they pursue him and each time he runs every time to G-d; for G-d is in every place so however much more they oppose him they cause him to come closer and closer to the Holy One.