# Prayer for Torah 13

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13 – 14.

Master of the Universe, You know everything that has happened to me from my youth until not. Very great controversy overcomes me all the time, materially and spiritually. G-d, how numerous are my tormentors, as is revealed to You, O Master. You have already taught us that, by controversy, a person can fall away from the service of G-d, Heaven forbid. I know that I am guilty; my evil deeds are criminal, nevertheless all my thoughts and intentions are directed to knock on the doors of mercy, so You will open for the gateways of holiness to bring me close from wherever I am. All my thoughts about the controversy against me are for the good. Thus the true tzaddikim have taught us – never to give up on mercy. Maybe, perhaps, the time will come when I will find an opening and channel through which I will be able to stop performing bad deeds and thinking indecent thoughts.

Now, my Father, what can I do against those who mock, accuse and persecute me very much above and below. You know when a person has tormentors in the world below, he also has accusers in the world above. Many fight me in the heavens and constantly offer accusations against me. They do not allow me to come close to You. And even if I admit to You, Merciful One, with shame and disgrace, that their accusations are not without reason for I am certainly not worthy of coming close to You because of my many sins, nevertheless, I have no where to run to; where can I escape and run to; other than You alone. You are my shelter in the time of distress. Therefore, I have come before You, Father in Heaven, Who has mercy on the poor,

For You search out to protect the persecuted ones. Merit me to come closer and closer to You. Act for Your Name’s sake. Help and save me so that I can always run and escape to You at all times. Merit me to throw down and subdue my enemies. Shelter me and save me from my enemies and persecutors, materially and spiritually. I have no-one to rely upon other than our Father in Heaven and upon the power of the true tzaddikim in whose footsteps I yearn to follow. Let no opposer have the power to prevent or delay me, materially or spiritually, from coming closer to You. May they be unable to distance me from truly serving You. May the words of my mouth and the musings of my heart find favour before You, G-d, my Rock and Redeemer. He Who makes peace in the Heavens, please make peace dwell upon us and all the Jewish People.

Amen.

14.

 Just as a person has enemies in the world Below, so he has enemies in the world Above.