# Prayer for Torah 34

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34.

Make me hear joy and gladness. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, Master of the Universe, You know how far I am away from real happiness in both body and soul. I have spoilt a lot beyond measure. What can I say? How can I justify myself? Because of all this, it is very hard for me to draw on myself happiness. You have bestowed upon me many good things, beyond number. You merited me to be a Jew and helped me to perform mitzvoth and to study Your holy Torah. All this gives us hope and eventually You will certainly rectify us and this is an eternal goodness. Even the lowliest Jew should be happy with this, nevertheless it is still hard for me to happy with my body. To reach perfect joy, in body and soul, I cannot because I know that I have blemished and sinned a lot.

Therefore I have come before You Merciful One, Master of joy, to ask that You help me in You wonderful ways, so that, even so I can really be happy perfectly, in body and soul, for nothing is beyond You. G-d, You are great to save. You can arrange Your awesome wonders to that I also can always be happy. Father in Heaven, You know how much I need distance myself from sadness and depression in the extreme. So, my Merciful Father, please have mercy on me; help me to always look at the ultimate end in such a way that I will gladden my heart. By this, merit me to be saved from all evil and to drive out all bad thoughts, confusions and evil ideas, including all the physical cravings and bad attributes. Let me drive out and nullify all this by the happiness and joy I feel. For this is the main form of encouragement.

In Your compassion, help me to merit to look at the sublime source of all the forms of happiness and goodness, the place where all the joy comes together and radiates. As a result, let me be really happy with all the good things and various types of joy together, as one. May the joy in my heart increase infinitely and let all the sparks from all the different kinds o goodness and joy together radiate one joy to another until the light of holy happiness shines with a great, awesome light, a great light which is very wonderful and pleasant, beyond measure. By this merit us to really return to You, with love and great joy in body and soul.

Merciful One, help me, Joy of Israel, to really feel this joy in my heart constantly. Let me rejoice and be happy in You, in Your true tzaddikim and in Your holy Torah in such a way that I can come out from gloom to light and freedom. Then merit me to return to You truly, with all my heart from now on. G-d, be my strength so I can overcome all bad thoughts and evil physical cravings. Let me always have holy and pure thoughts without any confusion at all. I will rejoice in Your salvation. May the words of my mouth and the musings of my heart find favour before You, G-d, my Rock and Redeemer.

Amen and Amen.

35.

 Those who study Torah deserve to know what will happen in the future.

36.

 As soon as a book is made there are coverings and concealments which cover and conceal its wonderful, pure light. The pages of the book's binding hide the book etc.

37.

 (a) The main, ultimate purpose of life is only to serve G-d and to walk in His paths for His Name's sake, in order to merit to know Him. This is the Holy One's desire. Anyone who serves Him for the sake of the World to Come is considered to be filling his stomach, meaning that he wants to satiate himself in the World to Come. Even though, it is really certainly much better to serve G-d even for the World to Come than to pursue This World, Heaven forbid. Furthermore, someone who serves G-d even for the World to Come is certainly wiser than a person who strives all his life for This World, for the former chooses for himself a world that exists for eternity. Nevertheless, the main, ultimate purpose is only to serve the Holy One in order to merit to know Him; this is perfection. That is the Holy One's desire.

(b) When a Jew doesn't sanctify himself and runs after cravings and luxuries and wants to hoard money, spending his days in efforts to leave an inheritance to his children, this money that he bestows to his children is like someone who dirties himself with filth and then takes the filth to cover over the dirt, as explained inside. See there. And even someone who wants to leave his merits to his children, this also isn't the perfect purpose. The perfect tzaddikim do not choose all this at all but, rather, they choose to fulfill G-d's desire.