# Prayer for Torah 59

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The holy Sages decreed that every individual Jew is duty-bound to endeavour to bring others close to serving You, for every Jew is responsible for his fellow. However, You know the many obstacles to this and the strength of the evil that causes strife to any person who is engaged in bringing people who are far away from holiness to come to serve You; the evil in these people wants to take hold of those who bring them close, Heaven forbid. Therefore I have come before You to plead such that You have mercy upon us.

Merit us to a good name. Guard us always from the sin of anger. Let me never be angry at anything or with any person. Save me from tearing my soul to pieces in my rage. May I never bow down to a false G-d, for it says that one who becomes angry is like an idol worshipper. Guard me from all kinds of anger with the utmost protection and pardon, atone and forgive me for all that I have blemished against You through the iniquity of anger from my youth until now. As a result bestow upon me bountiful, holy wealth; may our names and souls be enhanced by this until many souls will want to merge into ours and through this really come close to You. By this, may the name and soul of holiness be made greater forever.

Out of Your mercy protect us from evil-doers who must not be brought under the wings of Your service for they can bring us down from our spiritual level. Let us not deal with them at all.

Master of the World, full of compassion and lover of justice in Your bountiful mercy let me merit to holy justice, so that I merit to judge myself at all times with regard to everything I do. Let me think about my ways and to calm my mind very well every single day in order to judge myself, whether about the past or about the future, until I merit to bring judgment into the light and choose for myself a straight path upon which to progress. May all this be in such a way that I merit to perform Your will and really preserve Your statutes and judgments. Let me not diverge from true, straight judgment and let me not lead myself astray. Heaven forbid. But rather, let me consider and judge all my deeds with absolute truth in order that I merit to really return to You, as is Your good desire. In Your immense loving-kindness, take pity and have mercy upon me and let the good urge be my judge. May I meditate every day and look at myself very, very well; let me be compassionate and judge myself about everything I have done since my youth until today. Let me think of advice and strategies how to save my soul from the Pit. And let me make a really wholehearted and firm decision to always keep and fulfill Your commandments, statutes and judgments until my heart becomes really, greatly enthused towards You as is Your good desire, and until I merit to such fervour of the heart that all the evil that has a hold of me be destroyed, burnt and eradicated, whether it is evil within me because of my evil deeds or whether it is the evil of others that has become attached to me through my engaging in talking to them about fear of Heaven in order to bring them closer to Your worship….

Behold I stand before You full of shame and disgrace. Do whatever You will with me out of Your bountiful compassion and great charity. Return me before You in truly great repentance. Save me from any blemish of the brit. May no bad thought at all come to me. Sanctify me always with Your sublime holiness. Guard me and save me from the falsehood of charm and the vanity of beauty so that I will not act with false charm when sitting, walking and eating or when I speak to people. Merit me me to guard the oils in the body and thus save me from impatience and shortness of breath. Rather, let me have deep breaths and draw upon myself a holy spirit of life at all times, at every moment. Guard our mind always with the holy oils so that our minds will burn with great and holy contemplation. May our brains and minds progressively grow in great holiness. Then merit us to great and holy wealth to such a degree that we merit to sublime contemplation which is very great, holy and awesome and is drawn by means of the great, holy wealth.