Save me from the trait of wanting to triumph over others. Let me feel more comfortable to be vanquished than to win. For You know how very many people have lost their world completely. Heaven preserve us through this trait of being wanting to be. Triumph does not allow for truth. Even if a person sees with his own eyes that something is true, he will reject if for the sake of triumphing. Merit me to cleave to the attribute of truth and to always admit the truth. Let me always speak the truth for specifically by this, I will eventually merit to vanquish all those who oppose me and try to distance me from the path of truth. Protect me so that I do not mislead myself through the trait of wanting to vanquish others.
You taught us that You yearn and long for the Jewish People to triumph over You in their prayers such that You change Your will, so to speak, to our will. You take great delight when we triumph over You. And how could we do this other than by You sending us the words and claims by which to vanquish You.
So have mercy on me and send me words in order to explain myself before You at all times with new and proper claims, requests, supplications, appeasements
until I vanquish You so to speak. As a result, bring me close to You, even though I am not deserving, for Your compassion is immense.
Amen, so may it be Your will.
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The main thing and foundation that everything depends on is that a Jew connect himself to the tzaddik of the generation and accept whatever he says, whether a major thing or a minor thing, without swerving from his words, Heaven forbid, to the right or left. He must throw away all his wisdom and discard all his understanding, as if he hasn't any intelligence apart from what he will receive from the tzaddik or genuine rabbi of the generation. All the time that even some independent intelligence remains, he has not reached perfection and still isn't attached to the tzaddik. So too the main element of the Jewish People's receiving of the Torah at Sinai was that they discarded all their wisdom; they believed in G-d and His servant Moshe. That is what it says, "a foolish and unwise nation" (Deut. 32:6) which Unkulus translates as "a nation who accepted the Torah and were not wise."
Similarly, the essence of accepting the yoke of the Kingdom of Heaven is by discarding and nullifying all forms of wisdom. One just needs to go with purity and simplicity for only the holy Torah is true wisdom. All other wisdoms are nothing in comparison.